Chap.9-I´ve always been yours
It was new year. I couldn´t believe
it. One year had passed ,and I had changed so much, but was still very much the
same girl as I was a year ago.
I was excited. Not because of being new year
or the vision of a “fresh start” ,it was too late for that. It was too late to
try to scape from the ghosts of my past, I knew that. But it wasn’t late for
one thing: to go meet Andrew. Just his name made a dumb smile appear on my lips.
He had invited me to go watch the
fireworks with him tonight, at the beach and I couldn´t nor I wanted to say no.
I was really excited to see him, I had really missed him and I hadn’t been with
him nearly enough since my dad got back.
When I got to the beach where I was supposed to
meet him it was really dark and crowded and I started to panic a little bit. I couldn’t
see anything and the loud noise and drunk people made me quite uncomfortable. I
started backing out as fast as I could, not watching where I was going and hyperventilating
in the middle of the crowd, and just when I felt like I was going to pass out I
felt strong and familiar harms grabbing me and pulling me closer -Andrew.
We walked for a few minutes, until a place in
the beach that was almost totally desert. He carefully sat me on the sand and
he sat beside me, and protectively put his harm around my skinny body while I rested
my head on his shoulder.
-Hi-he said
in a soft voice.
-Hi-I responded,
and, somehow, this word showed him that I was smiling. I was so happy to be
there, in his harms. It was like I belonged there, and all my life had been
leading me to that very moment.
-You know,
life at home hasn’t exactly been good for
me this past few days, I always have this feeling like..
He waited
for me to continue. Because I didn´t he instigated:
- Like?..
- Like I need
to be somewhere else. Like I don’t belong. And this is a feeling that I had my
entire life. That I don’t feet in and no matter what I do or how hard I try I never
will..
-All..-he
started.
-No, let me
finish-he nodded so I continued-but somehow this
,being here ,with you, it feels…right
,and I feel like, here is where I always wanted to be-I smiled
and turned my face to him. He looked as beautiful as he always did, his hair
was a hot mess and his green eyes where staring back at me with that same glow
they always had when he was with me.
He pressured his lips to my forehead and something in that gesture showed me that
he.. loved me?
In the background,
outside from our world we heard
people starting to make the count down.
-60,59,58…
-You
know-he told me, resting his forehead in mine- I just realized that you´re not officially
my girl.
-55,54…
What?
-52…
-I mean, I know
we know each other for very little time, and I know how ridiculous I probably look
right know-oh he had no idea, I tried not to laugh-but when you really..-is he
going to say it?-..love someone-he did!- you don’t need time, you just know. Maybe that’s part of the reason why
it never felt like I was getting to know you, it always felt like I was remembering you, your smile, your voice, your
touch, your kiss.. and you make me fall in love with you with every second that
goes by, I couldn’t possibly imagine
life without you , ´cause looking back, until I knew you, it just felt like I was
half alive, and you completed it, me-the words where flowing out of his mouth
and softly touching my heart, like a secret touch between lovers. A tear
streamed down my face- what I’m trying to say is: I love you- he gently whipped
the tear out off my face-and I want you to be mine.
-5,4,3,2…
I didn’t know what to say so I kissed him and I
slowly melted like honey in his mouth, when we got out of breath and I moved my
lips apart from his, I was still gasping for air while I leaned forward till my
lips softly touched his hear and I whispered-I´m yours.
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I´ve always been yours.
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